I love that God uses our surroundings to tell us things about our own lives. Someone that I love is going through a very hard time. I'm not referring to a bad week, or even a bad month. This isn't the type of hole that she can just climb out of and brush herself off. God is the only one who can save her at this point. I can't describe how it felt to sit there and watch her suffer, knowing that nothing I said or could say would ease her pain. It is quite possibly the most helpless I've ever felt. I wanted so badly to take the hurt away, to restore all the hope that has escaped from her life. This is when my focus was taken off of this person and placed onto my own life. Over the last few months I have spent countless days and nights in this same type of hole. While I am able to climb out of it some days, I hang out so close to the edge that I fall right back in with the slightest breeze. While I'm in the hole, I feel that same hopelessness I witnessed today. I get angry with God, even doubt His existence in my life. How does that make Him feel? Does God look at me the same way I looked at this person today? Do His eyes fill with tears as He gets washed away in a sea of helplessness? After experiencing those feelings, I never want to make God, or the people who love me, feel that way again. I am going to put all my trust in Him and allow him to catch me when I feel that I may fall back into my hole. He showed me today that without Him I would be lost.