Morgalicious

I am in a very vulnerable place in my life right now. I have $12 in my bank account, and I owe $675 on my credit card. On top of that, I feel like most of my relationships are on uneven ground, and at any time an earthquake will come along and break it to pieces. It is so easy to lose my direction when everything is falling down around me that I forget about the map in my pocket. I need to remind myself to pull out this map when I'm feeling lost, because it leads to the only safe direction: God. Even when things seem like they are impossible to handle, I still manage to get through them. I forget that God is everything that I need and anything else is just extra. When I am stripped of all my earthly security, I am finally forced to find strength in the security that only God can provide. It is so much easier said than done, and that is what I am being challenged with at the moment. Why is it that I find it so hard to completely trust God when He is the only one who will never let me down? And why do I keep running to the people who will let me down? It is such a hard concept to grasp that God loves me. He REALLY loves me. This means He forgives me, pursues me, carries me, and guides me. He shows me every day that I can trust Him, so I need to do just that. I need to surrender everything to Him so that when I do get lost, all I have to turn to is His map.